After confirmation that I passed the 6-month probationary assessment, it feels glad that I was given another chance to continue what I have started in my territory. I am positive that little by little, I am making an impact already. With that, let me just thank my boss for trusting in me for what I can do in the area I manage. I’d like to thank as well all those who approved my regularization. For me, it simply shows trust in what I can do for the patients and for the organization as well.
Whenever this time of the month comes in, I always feel pressured and uneasy. Feels that I am not so sure with what I have to do on the following days despite that I have been doing it everyday. It seems like ordinary days are becoming less than special. Please bear with this post but I am talking about myself being with my boss at work.
Once a month, sometimes twice, for four straight days, my boss who is based in Bacolod City would have his field work with me and the other 6 of the team. It is more of coaching and mentoring of being a good sales person such as handling customer queries and sometimes objection, guiding us in the right manner of doing the business, sharing some experiences about customer relationship and some communication and interpersonal skills. Truly, it’s a training for us to be an effective sales person someday that later on, hopefully, will reflect as contribution to the organization and others who would need such. Absolutely, there is nothing wrong with it. In fact, I am more than willing to be trained and learn this whole thing. And another fact is that my boss is as cool and patient and calm and lenient as any of your dream boss. T’was just I who involuntary feels being pressured. :)
It just feels different whenever someone watches over how you do your job. Not because I am doing it wrong, but It’s just uncomfortable and makes me become so conscious with everything how I wanted to do my job. I know many can relate to it most especially when we know, or maybe we just think, that we are not yet good at it, that we are yet on the learning curve of our career. Often times, the only thing I wishes is to end the day appease.
Yet, on the brighter perspective, I also wanted to dismiss the day with something to learn from my boss. In fact, little by little, I know I am getting there. I just need more patience, zeal and enthusiasm to make it possible.
These two – uneasiness and zealousness – often collide which brings total unknown as to how I wanted the day to start and end. Although I know that it should be the latter that must prevail, my thought of learning new things is sometimes hindered by my thought of being judged and committing the wrong thing. In fact, my boss would often tell me that my ‘mathematical’ way of thinking makes me become more cautious and exact contrary to being loose and experimental as a sales person.
For now, I am praying that on the soonest time, I’ll be that person I see whenever I close my eyes. It’s never impossible to happen if I do the right thing and make every single day right. I seriously need a lot of courage to make it happen. I just hope and pray that tomorrow is the start of it all. Good night!
Took this last sunset of the year in Prism Plaza Pasay City while having coffee in the Coffee Bean and Tea Leaf. It just tells me one thing: the year might have ended but the sun which always signifies hope will never fail to give hope everyday, after the sunset, to everyone, regardless whether it’s a year or decade that will end.
I am always fascinated with how the picturesque of a setting sun is being formed. Whenever I look at it, including all the things around me that are reached by the peculiar light of the sun when it sets, it puts me to realization that when this day ends, I will be faced to a brand new day full of opportunities with difficulties and challenges with hope.
This puts me to my point that it doesn’t need a right time to plant hope in us because in everyday, there is hope. It depends on us whether we want to give ourselves a better chance to live at its best. It’s about perspective. The outlook we see is our prelude for tomorrow. Thus, make that outlook full of hope.
Happy New Year everyone!
I am four hours ahead of my flight to Manila. Yes, I am going back home to spend holidays with my family. After almost 4 months, I so much miss them already especially my nephews. I already miss ‘lutong bahay’ especially my mom’s adobo and sinigang. For sure this holiday, I’ll be busog big time!
Just excited to see all of them including my friends whom I missed some of their getaways while I’m here in Davao. Buo na naman ang tropa kaya for sure this will be a one big happy reunion. So thankful for this people! And of course, I gotta see my girl (soon, LOL). I hope she’ll like this simple gift I got for her. So much miss her already.
Anyway, two things for sure – there will be a one big shortage on the outflow of my resources called expenditures yet my 17 facial muscles will have tremendous exercise due to over happiness called smile and laughter.
Time’s up. I think it’s about time to check-in. Safe trip ahead of me!
I won’t do a detailed movie review here. I just like to share my thought that this movie is an epic one. I enjoyed the movie from the start until it ends. The story was may be too fast in terms of how Ender got promoted one level each time until he became the commander of the entire army but his being a prodigy really catches my interest to watch the movie breathlessly.
I like how the storyline naturally and realistically showed how extraordinary Ender is among others. I like how he thinks, command and do things. I like his personality of being a lanky boy yet a gladiator inside. His standpoint and conviction makes me wish of having such. His leadership reflects democracy in the army. His empathy shows pure heart of a child. And his passion with a heart over mind puts him to win every challenges he has.
Indeed, this movie, aside from interesting story, excellent visual effects and cinematography, and award-winning casts, has a lot of lessons to tell.
To end this, I’d like to quote Ender with this one:
“In the moment when I truly understand my enemy, understand him well enough to defeat him, then in that very moment I also love him. I think it’s impossible to really understand somebody, what they want, what they believe, and not love them the way they love themselves. And then, in that very moment when I love them…. I destroy them.”
I drove myself and my boss to Digos City last Friday. The city is more than 50 kilometers away from the downtown proper of Davao City through McArthur Highway and didn’t thought that it will be my first driving experience ever. Yes, that was my first time to drive ever in my life and so I was faced with some dilemmas throughout.
…such as driving in a heavy and accident-prone area where there are a lot of heavy-loaded trucks.
…such as the hard-headed drivers who can’t bear my 60kph speed within the highway so tries to overtake me often and would horn as often.
…such as the under construction roads where we have to share lanes and follow a give and take policy.
…such as the rocky roads where I would often forget to decelerate so it gives us a thrilling ride.
…such as the misconstructed roads where when you get out of a bridge, you’ll be immediately facing cars head to head.
…such as the impatient drivers from the opposite traffic whom would use your lane from the other side to overtake despite double solid yellow line and solid white in-between and will be surprised that I was coming on way.
…such as the overly crowded tricycles in Digos City where everyone has no coordination because there is no traffic light to regulate. As I would describe it, they’re like a colony of ants being disturbed.
…such as my wrong overtaking process where at some point get in-between of a pick-up and a tricycle and we’re so close to each other.
…such as taking more than two hours in the road from a supposed to be an hour ride because of my 60kph speed.
…and so on.
Despite all these things, it was all good and enjoyed that long drive.
But let me just highlight that along our way back to Davao City, we found a place called Little Boracay or Boracacay. It isn’t a beach with white sand and you can swim and have your skin tanned. Maybe they just felt that name. Anyway, it still is a beautiful place to relax from a long drive. We had our coffee there expecting a native one but not but then the place doesn’t need any type of coffee to fit in the atmosphere. The view and the fresh air are just enough to feed us. Not so sad thing is, it is in the East coast of the Philippines so we can’t expect a sunset falling in a gulf.
It was a great day indeed and I was hoping for more to come. :)
There are so many reasons why everyone has to be thankful with the lives they were given. It’s true that it’s tough and not all the time will give us happiness. Sometimes, we are on the darkest of our life. But just like a night with its moon, light will never leave us until dawn.
I just celebrated my 21st year of life. Looking back, it’s never easy for me to live in a story like this – full of challenges and difficulties, living under so many pressure and facing unending worries and ifs and buts. But with the way my parents raised me, I am thankful that so far, I’m nailing it! And to have come this far, I believe all others will still be hard as it is but in the end will get through it. Although I know that I might not still be yet in the peak of my life, I believe that every single day prepares me for the giants, both the best and worst.
But whatever may come, I know I have nothing to worry about for I have a God beside me and will never leave me. This is one thing I thank about for so many years. Because of difficulties I encounter and each time I’m at the lowest, I become closer and closer to Him. And each time I get out from it and see my hope, it makes me even more closer to Him. For that reason, I’m confident and always ready to face every single second of the day. In the first place, I have my faith that He has plans to prosper me.
At this point, I just like to thank everyone who greeted me on this special day and spend some time with me to make me feel that I am not alone. It’s quite sad to wake up in the morning with no greetings coming from my family but it’s all gone when I received a video message from them later that day. Thanks to everyone for the generosity, effort and love. Thank you Lord for all the blessings and challenges You provide. You just never forget and left me. And thank You for making me a better man every single day.
God knows that I still have a lot of dreams and wishes to come yet into existence. And He knows that everyday, I will ask for it. :)